Unending Epilogue 20

November 2010

I thought I only went out once in November. Checking my other diary, I see that I went out twice.

Nov 9 was a BD night. My diary entry was as follows.

I went to Barking Dog. It was rather quiet. The music was rather eclectic and not always in a good way. I don't like leading with a lot of tension – it’s bad for self-preservation. This was brought upon by reading suggestions from salsaforums.com after posting a video of me (via Brendan) from a venue near Baltimore. If Tish had not been there, it would have qualified as a poor night. String of mediocre nights continues.

Nov 13 was a DCDC night. My diary entry is only of things written before I went there as follows.

I’m not particularly excited about going to tonight’s Salsa event. In some ways I regret posting that video for suggestions for improvement. I’m not sure if I want to get away from leading lightly – the alternative is rather painful and unpleasant.

My recollection is that I did not enjoy the evening. This was more because of my internal state rather than because of anything particularly wrong with DCDC. I thought I might be ready for a break from Salsa - at least in DC. Going to the regular spots in DC seemed to bring too much painful memory (not caused by Salsa but specific to Salsa outings) and often not enough joy from dancing to overcome it, and non-regular spots inspire me even less. I did not even say a proper goodbye to Tanya.

I thought maybe I would get back in January. However, seeing that it is now pretty late in December and considering that my mood lately, I would not bet on returning in January.